Satu renungan

Aku sedar masa berlalu begitu pantas tanpa aku sedari.. Kini sudah masuk satu minggu arwah nenek meninggalkan kami.. Pemergianmu merupakan takdir Allah. Tiada siapa yang dapat menghalang kehendakMu. Manusia yang kerdil adalah ciptaanMu. Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan kembali kepadaMu. Ini juga merupakan kehendakMu.. Kini aku dapat melihat serta memahami hakikat kehidupan. Tiada yang kekal kecuali Allah Al-Baqi. Dunia ini adalah milikMu. Manusia hanya penghuni dan khalifah yang mendiami bumi untuk satu tempoh yang telah ditetapkan olehMu. Oh Tuhan, aku berasa sangat malu dan insaf. Aku sedar bekalan hidupku sentiasa kekurangan dan sentiasa membuat dosa. Ya Tuhan, ketahuilah, aku kini memikirkan dosa apa yang bakal aku lakukan sebentar lagi. Astagfirullah, aku seorang insan yang daif. Ya Allah, ya Tuhan, kasihanilah hambuMu ini.

Andaiku tahu jangka hayatku

Akan aku menyiapakan bekalanku

Namun itu diluar kekuasaanku

Tuhan sahaja mengetahui umurku

Hari itu pasti tiba

Malaikat Izrail akan menjemputku

Tiada keraguan tapi nyata

Alam barzakh akan menantiku

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku

Aku memohon rahmat dariMu

Tunjukilah aku jalan kebenaran

Menuju keredhaanMu Ya Tuhan

Semoga rahmat Allah akan sentiasa mencurahi roh nenek yang sangat kami cintai. Insya Allah, amin.

Kami merinduimu dan hanya doa yang dapat kami berikan sebagai tanda cinta kami.

Life is short

It has been a long time that i did not come here to write. Weeks? Months? hehehe, time flies so fast

On 16th March, Friday together with 26 Safar 1428 Hijrah, my granny had passed away. Thank you Allah for inviting my granny on a blessed Friday. One of my cousins dreamt that granny came to visit us and she was smiling. She wore white prayer clothes and she left behind a holy scent. Alhamdulillah, she is one of the chosen occupants of Heaven. The great feeling is when Allah had answered our prayers. As for my case, I prayed may Allah place Granny in a best position in His Heaven. I was blissful when i heard that my cousin (farhana) dreamt about Granny's condition. Dear Granny, i left you with a poem below:

Granny

You are a wonderful lady

your smile, your tears

shall be remembered by us

you are an angel

sent by Allah to us

you fed us with love

you showed us the meaning of life

i could see the sufferings

in your warmest eyes

coping with the disease

that had been fated by Allah

nevertheless, you are strong

you never seem to give up

you accepted the test

with an open heart

on a bright Friday

you gave out your last breath

leaving this temporary world

with peacefulness and calmness

we shall miss your calm composure

we shall miss your cooking

we shall miss your laughter

we shall miss your presence

Dear granny, our granny

you are always be remmebered

in our humble hearts

in our humility prayers

We love you so much

Now, we are left with our grandpa. He will take turns to sleep over at each of our houses. Oh Allah, i cant promise you anything but i will take good care of granpa so that granny will always smile. i will give my best to make his dreams come true... blessed us.. blessed my family.... Oh Allah, blessed the soul of our beloved granny.. amin.